My time in Bali is still blowing my mind. After chakra meditations, crystal healing sessions, holy temple prayers, teaching to the Green School students, playing with the Bali circus community, hiking up Mount Batur, motorbike adventures, and a big move to a solid location in Ubud, I am feeling the most infinite gratitude I've ever felt! So happy to be alive and thriving.
A poem I read a week ago at poetry night in Ubud...
* Surrender *
"death is a doorway
funnel through its fragile frame
become earth angel"
Letting go is like dying
those parts of your star matter
that have sat unattended to,
unacknowledged,
like other gassy planets in the galaxy
you've been taught they are
cold and distant
But you know they are warm
at their cores
You've sat still and suspended
in this silent sky of doubts and fears
for too long
It is time to break free
and revolve around your own golden sun
You can dance however you want.
Nobody is watching anymore.
Letting go is like dying
yet the dying part takes great strength
the strength of the moon
how she's so strong she can move the oceans
I want what she has
that silent and neutral passivity
Hanging sphere of glass, please don't crack
Stay pure and real and
let this dark blanket of cosmos
keep me warm
Letting go is like dying
No more personality to prove
No more actions to choose through
You are hanging low and most of all, you are tactfully open
You are saying YES
like the deepest grassy valley
that wallows between the highest hills ~
so much green strength
in that lonely graceful humility
you are able to receive it all
You are able to release and just BE
"Take me," you say,
"I Am Majestic"
Letting go is like dying
Never as final as you believe it to be
Like an ex-lover who still makes you bleed
from your insides to your outs
That wise wide-eyed gaze connection
the one that stole your smile years ago
That last real cry you shared together
Stings and lingers behind your eyeballs,
it's all been slowly killing you ever since your new direction
Whether the break was diluted with density
or floating with fluffy clouds and purple unicorns
It's all heaven in the ending
If you just let it be that way
The gate is always unlocked
Waiting to welcome you.
Self-taught student
and Lifelong Learner
You're only as beautiful as you can remember
You have so much more
than you had before
you began to explore
So why haven't you taken it yet?
Why all this holding back?
Greet it.
Give it.
It's Yours.
It is All Yours
When You Let It Go ~
